Perfect

It might not be the perfect love story. We may not have the perfect qualities, but I’m enjoying this. This is what makes it perfect.

We frequently have silly fights.

We have lapses. We can hurt each other, but a simple sorry can fix it.

I think seldom fighting is healthy. But of course, i knew that too much might cause pain.

I’m making my own love story work. oops–I think it should be, we are making our own love story to tell and to cherish forever. ^__^

Hurting

Why do I have to hurt you this way? Why can’t I give you everything that you wanted? Why do we have to end each night angry or disappointed with each other?

I cried. And it sucks. Why do I always mess up with this? Argh!

I don’t want to answer you, why? because I might mess everything again. I make everything bad.

I’ll just shut up. I’ll cry on my own and wait for your anger to subside. I will always love you. No matter what.

A brand new love

I found a brand new love. Yes, he makes me laugh. He inspires me. And he makes me happy. He was the guy that I have been waiting for.

I don’t usually let myself fall for anyone, I’m afraid of getting hurt, but this time, I’m willing to take the risk, because I believed on everything that he said.

^_^ I love him.

And I always be.

black and white and colorful love stories

The two movies that were shown in class are of great difference with each other: one is black and white and the other is lively with color. It had showed me two faces of love: one of them is the silent and subtle love that is of the conservative type, it has to stop but the purity of love is in there, the sacrificial ingredient was also there, making it more ethereal. While the second one is the daring kind, the adventurous one, that in some part of the  movie it made me feel that they hate each other to the extent of hurting one another.

Laura made me think of some priorities in life. She has to pick over her family and the man she recently fell in love with. It might be brief, but she enjoyed it, but later chose her family instead. Sometimes, hard decisions are needed to be made, especially when our priorities are set.

Sophie on the other hand, taught me that love is a game, a fun one. All you need to do is choose which is more fun and play the game; be daring, but don’t forget to love– it is the essence of the game.

In my whole existence, I have experienced the black and white kind of love. Or should I say, I’ve been so in love with someone but he doesn’t know about it. An experience that made me giggle and the element of surprise was also there. I had love someone for almost three years without asking for something in return, the pleasure of seeing him makes me happy, nothing more. It might be funny or weird, but I was happy at that moment. But it has to end, he has a life and he is living it up, I’ve got to let go of him so as not hurting myself. And so I did I moved on by going to college and leaving the place that would make me remember him. It’s a love story for me, a subtle and silent one, in which no words or even abrupt action has to be made, it’s silent from the beginning and it ended when no one was watching.

I have dreamt of a colorful love story, something that is lively. I guess I usually bore myself with clichéd stories. I want something like that of the second movie, wild and free. Something that will make lovers asks for more; something that would defy trends in love story, something that won’t kill lovers of boredom.

I’m still young, and I think the university had given me so much freedom to open up my mind that I may understand and reflect the two movies on what I really wanted in my life. I’m not that wild like Julien and Sophie but I’m up to the challenge of something that love might give to me.

Robert Pattinson as Spider Man?

After some problems with the casts and directors of the Spider Man series, and the quitting of Toby Maguire as the main cast. The release date of Spider Man 4 was pushed.

And speculations came out that Robert Pattinson would be the next Spider Man?

Geez…a vampire turned into a spider.

Watch out girls for the next Spider-Vampire! Rawr!

Earthquake in Haiti

A very sad news  happened yesterday Tuesday, January 12, 2010- as one of the strongest earthquake hits Haiti. This is one of the strongest earthquake that ever hits Haiti in more than 200 years.

Haiti, being one of the Caribbean poor nation was shattered into pieces. A lot of infrastructures were damaged. Even the headquarters of the U.N. peacekeepers didn’t make it.

What is more alarming is the fact that over 2 million people died. And a lot more needs medications.

According to some international news, Haiti is asking for help from countries around the world.

I think, this is the right time that we should help one another.

Maybe if big countries can send out troops for war, I think sending troops for medication is far better than the other one.

I really hope and pray that Haiti will be able to survive this catastrophe.

Destiny Online

I got hooked up on this latest game, known as the Destiny Online.

This is my first MMORPG(Massively Multiplayer Online  Role Playing Game), I had played some RPG(Role Playing Game), but they were not that fun. In an MMORPG, there exist a player to player interaction, making the game so fun.

You can chat and have some duels with any player, that are also online, making your brains work for the strategy.

There are also some guilds or tribe wherein you an build your own team or platoon. There are events that a person don’t want to miss.

One of my favorite event is the wedding ceremony.  Yeah, love it.

Here is the story line from the Homepage of Destiny Online:

The legend started in an ancient eastern world where one day, the 10 naughty sons of the Almighty God decided to turn into 10 suns playing over the sky. The human suffered due to the scorching heat and everything on Earth was dying. A hero appeared carrying a powerful bow and fired 9 arrows into the sky, shooting down 9 of the suns, and thus returned peace and safety to Earth. The 9 fallen suns, turned into nine golden plumes, and scattered over the great mystical land. It is said that whoever finds all 9 plumes will gain the almighty power of God.

Really love this game guyz.

You can try it here: destiny online

What Happened?

When I entered this university, I was unsure. Unsure of the things that might happen here. Of the new people that I would met, that I’d cling on. I’m not that expressive. I usually let people think that I don’t listen to them, that I don’t care. I hate standing in front, all eyes set on me, makes me nervous. Worst, I don’t like talking about my feelings– heartaches and pains. No, I’d rather hang myself.

But that particular day, I met a lot of people, a set of people, whose common denominator is that they all took the same Degree Program. Nothing more, nothing less.

And then, I took a risk. I introduced myself. Looked into their eyes, and then at that moment, I suddenly realized, I found my special space in this world.

It was such a good moment. Every night, I usually story-tell what happened in our lessons. Though, I know I sometimes bore my roommates about it. But i’m so happy. I found a very unique set of people.

This was a new start.

A new lessons, a new experience, but most of all a new chance.

When circumstances forced me to stop. My whole world shattered. this is too much. This is too unfair. This is too….

When I came back, something was wrong. A lot of things. There were gaps, holes and walls between people.

It was terrible.

Worst, what I did was stare. And becoming too numb, too tough, I pretend of not seeing the problem. I continued with my life.

But now, I realized, my absence, made me realized how special these people are for me.

I don’t want to lose them. That would be too much.

I was so happy this semester. Though, I know after this, a lot of us will have to leave. But I do understand. I was so blessed, we’re classmates everyday. Isn’t that amazing? Just like the old times.

But, then, this problem….

This broke my heart.

Of course, I’m as guilty as everybody else. I also have a lot of lapses in keeping this batch.

For that, I’m sorry.

I’m sorry for not being always there.

I’m sorry I can’t.

I’m Sorry…for not telling everyone how I love you all.

I’m sorry for being so insensitive.

I’m sorry for being a brat.

I’m sorry for being a heart ache.

I’m sorry I was not able to say “SORRY.”

Mechanisms

We all have our own mechanisms. Or, maybe our defense mechanisms. In times of danger, or even in times of loneliness. We tend to do something for us not to lose our sanity, by holding to that small thread which connects us to people whom we think  we can’t live without.

I used to believe that being with them is the best thing forever. But then, when I leave, nobody noticed it. And worst, when I came back,  everything had gone wrong. Was it my fault? Did my absence made them realized that they don’t need me? Or, was it from the very beginning I am assuming that they had treated me special. That I am important. But then, in the end..I am just assuming.

I was never special.

I’m just so ordinary that I bore people.

What’s more hurtful is that I don’t even know where to place myself.

What else can I say….

I usually lie to myself. Thinking that everything is alright. That all those people who promised me a lot of things, are still there. But then, the truth is I’m alone. Nobody cares.

I miss you guys…really…

Love Drunk By Boys Like Girls

Hey, hey, hey, hey

Top down in the summer sun

The day we met was like a hit and run

And I still taste it on my tongue

(Taste it on my tongue)

The sky was burning up like fireworks

You made me want you, oh, so bad it hurt

But girl, in case you haven’t heard

I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hungover

I love you forever, forever is over

We used to kiss all night, now it’s just a bar fight

So don’t call me crying, say hello then goodbye

(Oh yeah!)

There’s just one thing would make me say

(Oh yeah!)

I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hungover

I love you forever, but now it’s over

(Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey)

Hot sweat and blurry eyes

We’re spinning on a roller coaster ride

The world stuck in black and white

(Stuck in black and white)

You drove me crazy every time we touched

Now I’m so broken that I can’t get up

Oh girl, you make me such a lush

I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hungover

I love you forever, forever is over

We used to kiss all night, now it’s just a bar fight

So don’t call me crying, say hello then goodbye

(Oh yeah!)

There’s just one thing would make me say

(Oh yeah!)

I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hungover

I love you forever, but now it’s over

All the time I wasted on you

All the bullshit you put me through

I’m checking into rehab ’cause everything that we had

Didn’t mean a thing to you

I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hungover

I love you forever, but now I’m sober

I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hungover

I love you forever, forever is over

We used to kiss all night, now it’s just a bar fight

So don’t call me crying, say hello then goodbye

(Oh yeah!)

There’s just one thing would make me say

(Oh yeah!)

I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hungover

I love you forever, but now it’s over

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na

Now it’s over, I still taste it on my tongue

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na

Na, na, na, na, na, na

Now it’s over