We frequently have silly fights.

We have lapses. We can hurt each other, but a simple sorry can fix it.

I think seldom fighting is healthy. But of course, i knew that too much might cause pain.

I’m making my own love story work. oops–I think it should be, we are making our own love story to tell and to cherish forever. ^__^

I cried. And it sucks. Why do I always mess up with this? Argh!

I don’t want to answer you, why? because I might mess everything again. I make everything bad.

I’ll just shut up. I’ll cry on my own and wait for your anger to subside. I will always love you. No matter what.

I don’t usually let myself fall for anyone, I’m afraid of getting hurt, but this time, I’m willing to take the risk, because I believed on everything that he said.

^_^ I love him.

And I always be.

Laura made me think of some priorities in life. She has to pick over her family and the man she recently fell in love with. It might be brief, but she enjoyed it, but later chose her family instead. Sometimes, hard decisions are needed to be made, especially when our priorities are set.

Sophie on the other hand, taught me that love is a game, a fun one. All you need to do is choose which is more fun and play the game; be daring, but don’t forget to love– it is the essence of the game.

In my whole existence, I have experienced the black and white kind of love. Or should I say, I’ve been so in love with someone but he doesn’t know about it. An experience that made me giggle and the element of surprise was also there. I had love someone for almost three years without asking for something in return, the pleasure of seeing him makes me happy, nothing more. It might be funny or weird, but I was happy at that moment. But it has to end, he has a life and he is living it up, I’ve got to let go of him so as not hurting myself. And so I did I moved on by going to college and leaving the place that would make me remember him. It’s a love story for me, a subtle and silent one, in which no words or even abrupt action has to be made, it’s silent from the beginning and it ended when no one was watching.

I have dreamt of a colorful love story, something that is lively. I guess I usually bore myself with clichéd stories. I want something like that of the second movie, wild and free. Something that will make lovers asks for more; something that would defy trends in love story, something that won’t kill lovers of boredom.

I’m still young, and I think the university had given me so much freedom to open up my mind that I may understand and reflect the two movies on what I really wanted in my life. I’m not that wild like Julien and Sophie but I’m up to the challenge of something that love might give to me.

And speculations came out that Robert Pattinson would be the next Spider Man?

Geez…a vampire turned into a spider.

Watch out girls for the next Spider-Vampire! Rawr!

Haiti, being one of the Caribbean poor nation was shattered into pieces. A lot of infrastructures were damaged. Even the headquarters of the U.N. peacekeepers didn’t make it.

What is more alarming is the fact that over 2 million people died. And a lot more needs medications.

According to some international news, Haiti is asking for help from countries around the world.

I think, this is the right time that we should help one another.

Maybe if big countries can send out troops for war, I think sending troops for medication is far better than the other one.

I really hope and pray that Haiti will be able to survive this catastrophe.

This is my first MMORPG(Massively Multiplayer Online  Role Playing Game), I had played some RPG(Role Playing Game), but they were not that fun. In an MMORPG, there exist a player to player interaction, making the game so fun.

You can chat and have some duels with any player, that are also online, making your brains work for the strategy.

There are also some guilds or tribe wherein you an build your own team or platoon. There are events that a person don’t want to miss.

One of my favorite event is the wedding ceremony.  Yeah, love it.

Here is the story line from the Homepage of Destiny Online:

The legend started in an ancient eastern world where one day, the 10 naughty sons of the Almighty God decided to turn into 10 suns playing over the sky. The human suffered due to the scorching heat and everything on Earth was dying. A hero appeared carrying a powerful bow and fired 9 arrows into the sky, shooting down 9 of the suns, and thus returned peace and safety to Earth. The 9 fallen suns, turned into nine golden plumes, and scattered over the great mystical land. It is said that whoever finds all 9 plumes will gain the almighty power of God.

Really love this game guyz.

You can try it here: destiny online

But that particular day, I met a lot of people, a set of people, whose common denominator is that they all took the same Degree Program. Nothing more, nothing less.

And then, I took a risk. I introduced myself. Looked into their eyes, and then at that moment, I suddenly realized, I found my special space in this world.

It was such a good moment. Every night, I usually story-tell what happened in our lessons. Though, I know I sometimes bore my roommates about it. But i’m so happy. I found a very unique set of people.

This was a new start.

A new lessons, a new experience, but most of all a new chance.

When circumstances forced me to stop. My whole world shattered. this is too much. This is too unfair. This is too….

When I came back, something was wrong. A lot of things. There were gaps, holes and walls between people.

It was terrible.

Worst, what I did was stare. And becoming too numb, too tough, I pretend of not seeing the problem. I continued with my life.

But now, I realized, my absence, made me realized how special these people are for me.

I don’t want to lose them. That would be too much.

I was so happy this semester. Though, I know after this, a lot of us will have to leave. But I do understand. I was so blessed, we’re classmates everyday. Isn’t that amazing? Just like the old times.

But, then, this problem….

This broke my heart.

Of course, I’m as guilty as everybody else. I also have a lot of lapses in keeping this batch.

For that, I’m sorry.

I’m sorry for not being always there.

I’m sorry I can’t.

I’m Sorry…for not telling everyone how I love you all.

I’m sorry for being so insensitive.

I’m sorry for being a brat.

I’m sorry for being a heart ache.

I’m sorry I was not able to say “SORRY.”

I used to believe that being with them is the best thing forever. But then, when I leave, nobody noticed it. And worst, when I came back,  everything had gone wrong. Was it my fault? Did my absence made them realized that they don’t need me? Or, was it from the very beginning I am assuming that they had treated me special. That I am important. But then, in the end..I am just assuming.

I was never special.

I’m just so ordinary that I bore people.

What’s more hurtful is that I don’t even know where to place myself.

What else can I say….

I usually lie to myself. Thinking that everything is alright. That all those people who promised me a lot of things, are still there. But then, the truth is I’m alone. Nobody cares.

I miss you guys…really…